Sunday, March 29, 2009

enough with the vomit already!

So, eyah, squeamish warning and all that, but seriously? if you read the title, you shouldn't need it.

Hermes is at about %90 right now. Healthy enough to be annoying, ill enough to attempt to use it in his favor.

Thor and Loki, on the other hand, well, last night, I honestly thought things had turned around, and when they ate brunch this morning, and I managed more than 18 vomit free hours? Yeah, I thought I was in the clear.
That was until an hour ago, when I had tandem vomit happenning Loki woke from his nap, came downstairs, sat next to Thor on the couch, and proceded to hork while having his pants changed. Hit my left leg from the knee down. Loki set off Thor, who hit a good third of the living room, and my right leg, from calf down, as well as filling up one of Hubby's tennis shoes.

So, the couch blankets are in the wash again, as are my jeans, hubby's shoes, the clothes both boys were wearing, and then the floor was dininfected.

Hermes had to spend some time in his room after that, though, to take some time to think about the fact that making puke jokes, while your brothers are horking on your mom, is not the smartest thing you could do.

Saturday, March 28, 2009

welcome to spring break- the washer and shower are that way


Hermes was sick last week. He is still not "above the weather" as he likes to say.
Last night, Thor and Loki joined the ranks of the ill at the house.
I have spent most of the last 24 hours clening up vomit, and enticing liquids, oyster crackers, and applesauce into young'ens so that, if nothing else, they have something to come back up.
Thor being ill is a killer. Prior to getting his tonsils out, almsot two years ago now, he vomited regularly. He rarely does anymore, though. He has Excorsist like range, and it hurts him, and then he cries, and the most heartbreaking thing, he says he is so very sorry. It kills. It breaks your heart. It makes it much easier to be forgiving when he vomits all over you, and your clean bed, at 8:20 in the morning (yeah, that was my morning).
Loki seems to not have what his brothers do, he seems to be suffering from sinus drainage, probably cold or allergy related, judging by the weather, and other indicators, that I am not going to get into, but any one who has ever dealt with mass quantities of up-chuck could explain.

I am in a place where I don't know how I am feeling. I am tired and sore, but thqt could be from not sleeping well. I am a wee bit nausious, but have been dealing with vomit since tuesday night. So, I could either be getting sick, or I could just be sick of everyone else being sick.

I would like to leave you with a bit of wisdom, by way of Hermes - "Momma, why do people say 'the other day'? That makes no sense, there are more than two days, so it cannot really be the other day, now, can it?"

Tuesday, March 24, 2009


So, Friend who crashes on our couch had a job interview with Home Depot today. Friend totally got hired, on the spot, after not even half an hour of interview time. He starts the first week in April. At this point, it is part time and seasonal, but they already put in writing that he has first dibs on the full time possition and first dibs on permanent possitions as long as he lives up to his awe inspiring customer service reputation.

In order to celebrate him being all manly-man with a job again, I made him a tasty lunch, a manly lunch, an adult lunch, of Alphabet tater tos and cheesy chicken nuggets =P

Friday, March 20, 2009

just one of those weeks

I know, I know, it's been a week when I promised to try and update regularly. Thing is, it's just been one of those weeks. One of those weeks where nothing quite works right, nothing happens exactly when it should, and no one is is all together there.

four years ago, about this time, my sister was diagnosed as being bipolar. In fact, four years ago wednesday is the day she was released from spending a week in the mental ward of the hospital. That time in our lives brought us much closer together, as sisters, and as friends. I tried to be there for her as much as I could, and she has returned the favor in kind over the years.

A few days ago, a good friend called me after being released from just shy of three full days in a mental ward of a hospital. She has been diagnosed as bipolar, and is now in the fun and exciting land of having meds tweaked until the right combination is found, therapy, lots and lots of therapy, and trying to raise two young sons with her husband. I am doing what I can to be a good friend to her, and she is doing the same, in kind.

Hubby, well, Hubby can be an ass, and it seems to come out when I need him the most. This is something I am attempting to deal with.

Hermes is in week two of three, four-day school weeks. We have his conferences next Thursday evening, which always fills me with dread, not because I am worried about what they will say about him, that's almost always the same, but because I always worry a bit about what THEY will think of ME. I know I am not the stereotypical mom, and sometimes I worry that it affects how others see him.

Thor is, well, Thor. He seems to ba having more bad days than good as of late, but fewer in betweeny days. He is able to give us a little heads-up, normally, on what sort of day he is having, so that helps.

Loki? An amazing monkey. He is flexible, smart, and sometimes breaks my heart by being normal. It can be hard to see him take normal leeps of logic, and not ahve it happen to Thor.
I try very hard to make sure he gets momma/loki time, just us, stories and dancing, normally, as I fear that he just isn't getting enough of me.

I also fear, sometimes, that there just sin't enough of me to go around.

Thursday, March 12, 2009

so, it's been three days

I know I said I was going to post daily or every other daily, but once again, real life got in the way. I am having twinges that mean either kidney or gall stone, and that sucks. Hermes was ill on March 10th, so I was dealing with him, and wonder of wonders, Thor said a bratty 'no!', I was tripping the border between pissed off and proud momma so hard, I damned near gave myself whiplash.
For those who are new here, and haven't read the archive, or for those who just don't know or remember, Thor is on the Autism spectrum, and has a whole slew of acronyms to go with it. Part of the fall out from all of this is that he is not always age appropriate, and he doesn't always express himself properly. For me to telll him to go to his room, and him to look at me and say "No!" is HUGE! It sucks, as I totally had to discipline him, and explain that when Momma tells you to do something, no is not the correct answer, but I was soo puffy chested proud at that moment. He did something that was normal not normal for him, but normal for any 4.5 year old.

Loki, on the other hand, is becoming even more of a monkey. I have had to tell him repeatedly in the last few days that we do not eat with our feet and ankles resting on the table. He does this while strapped into his booster seat. Imagine, if you will, almost three year old boy, but in a chair, elbows resting on the table as he eats his peanut butter sandwich, milk on his right, and his feet and ankles swung up over the outside of his frame, to rest on the table. Yeah...monkey.

Also, I have been dealing with some personal shit right now. It sucks, it's complicated, it's confusing, it's frustrating, and yeah...

Till next time, loyal readers, till next time.

Monday, March 09, 2009

It's March 9th...duh!

Hermes is home from school today Amazingly, it is not because he is sick. In reality, it's a teacher development day at The Palace of Learning. I aksed Hermes over the weekend why he had no school today, though, and he replied "Well,'s March Ninth...duh!" Of Course! Why didn't I think of that, 3-09 means no school! Wevs...

I should have taken a shower roughly 40 minutes ago. I had every intention of taking a shower, I had my towel ready, I had clothes ready, but I totally forgot to factor in the insanity the younger two members of the Pantheon, Thor and Loki, would cause.
Daylight Savings rolled yesterday. Clockes were set ahead an hour. Thor's internal clock did not reset yet. As far as he is concerned, it is too early for SuperWhy or Sid the Science Kid. It is too early to be so tired, it is too early for (insert anything here) his insanity over this is affecting Loki, as the two of them play off of each other all the time, emotion and attitude wise. This insanity is leading to massive quantities of willful disobedience (the new term for misbehaving in housewife land- think Joan Crawford being all No Wire Hangers!!! and you can almost get the tone used for Willful Disobediance! whic Thor and Loki proudly announce they are doing)

I am hectic, but this seems to be a constant. I recently reread my entire blog, and realized that I use the word hectic as a self descriptor way too much.

Things are...interesting...for me at the moment. I have a lot of stuff to figure out and deal with, Hermes is too damned smart for anyones good, Thor, well...I will do a thor intensive post later, and Loki is a smart-ass.

Life is life, it is good, bad, happy, upset, suprising, predictable, red, grean, up and down all at once.

Saturday, March 07, 2009


I went out drinking with a dear friend last night, and it rocked. No kids, no worries, no responsibilities, no driving by me. Just music at an irish pub, and irish booze.
Granted, I am dealing with it now, and I had to deal with explaining why I needed to go out to certain peoples in the first place (sigh) but it was totally worth it.

I will write more later today or tomorrow, when my brain is actually functional, but I said I would be posting more, and I am doing it, dammit!

Seriously, I got to be me last night for the first time in so long, and it was nice.

Thursday, March 05, 2009

look at this, it's the next day!

See, readers, it's the next day, and I am in fact, writing a post.
As I touched on in my last post, I have a large amount of stuff that I am working through. I am doing OK with this, though. I realized that there is a lot of shit from my past that needs to be worked out, and there is a lot of current shit, too. The current shit cannot ever be resolved if I don't deal with the past shit.
I am working on balancing the mom-me, wife-me, student-me, and, well, me.
I am working on remembering who I am, and that I do much of what I do to help my family, but for ME as well.

I am reconnecting with dear old friends, catching up, finding where, when, and how our paths diverged, and so on.

Once again, to reitterate, I am actually doing OK.
I am getting a bit more OK every day.

Wednesday, March 04, 2009

Over a month! I am so sorry dear readers.

I am sure that many of you in my large readership, all 13 of you, have been wondering what happened to me. Did I give up blogging? Was I eaten by my children, The Pantheon, after not having dinner done on time? Was I ubducted by aliens looking for a cure to ADD before realizing I was sooo not the person with that? Did I get caught in a horrible avelanch? The answer to these questions is: no; no; possibly; i don't think so.

Actually, I have been really busy, and a wee bit ectic, and every time I sit down to write, something comes up that needs to be delt with immediately- this is the life of a mom of three. Real life often gets in the way, and sometimes, it drives me a little nuts. Seriously, I am doing OK, but it's sometimes scary that I will break into tears once the boys are resting, as I don't seem to get any time to just myself anymore.

I have talked some to the hubby about this, and he is going to make sure I get time to myself more often.

I have a few ideas floating around in my head, they have been for a while, so I decided it was time to act on them. One ofthe things I will do in my non mom non student time is learn to play the guitar. I have always wanted to be part of a chick band, even if it's never anyhting more than a "garage band". I am also going to start getting some of my fashion designs down on paper, then on fabric. I am still getting my accounting degree, fear not, readers, but I need to do this for me.
I realized, recently, how not 'Me' I am anymore. I am always being everything for everyone else, and I need to be me for me.

Right now, I am typing this on a break at school, so I need to go, but guess what Loyal Readers? Part of me being me for me means I will be posting here daily or every other daily for a while.

Talk to you all soon