Tuesday, December 28, 2004

Open letter to the snooty poeple who piss me off!!!

Well, I'm feeling prolific today!

Dear people at the store, gas station and restaurants:
Quit pissing me off!!I have enough shit to deal with without you commenting on my appearance or how I raise my children. I can only assume you base how I raise my children on the basis of what I wear,drive purchase and how the dress and act in public being you have never met me nor spent any time with me(Thanks be). Yes-I took the first shower I have had in nearly a week today, I have two children to raise in the hopes that they not act like you, and quite frankly, tho showering falls near the top of my priority list it's not the end all be all of my existance. Yes-my older son was wearing a wizards hat as opposed to a winter cap-but it is wool, warm and let's him believe for a few brief shining moments that he is someone he is not, in a land better than this, with amazing abilities abd talent. Even though he has his unique skill set I am very proud of turning a cat into a teacup isn't one of them. Yes, my little guy wascrying-You know what? Babies do that. a lot. for no reason sometimes. It happens. I am NOT a bad mother because I let him cry for exactly one minute before feeding him. I figured it would be easier for all those involved if I made my breast available outside the bra before he started nursing. And yes, I breastfeed in public, I keep myself as covered as possible and am descreet as possible and if you don't like it, stop staring!!!!! It's a boob! women have them! Hell, some men have them!!! I do my best to raise them well, to teach them respect for all others and let them be individuals.If you don't like it-raise your own children and leave me the f### alone.
Thank you.


I just realized that I didn't have my comments section properly set up. Now anyone and everyone can comment on my life, how that differs from normal is beyond me. I would also like to apologise for my short hyatis. Little man is an early teether and is cross teething to boot. That, for those of you who are not parents, means that his teeth are trying to come in in a different order that what is standard. Normally the front teeth bottom, than top com in followed by the sides, cuspids I think they are called.(I normally call them the canines) This is much more painful for the littleman, and being he is only two an a half months now..we are limitied in the forms of pain relief we can use. Due to the extra attention littleman is getting-bigguy is acting up. Nothing beats a tyrranical 3 year old on a mission for more attention.
On a different note-the holiday season has come and gone for most of us. I am supposed to see my dad tomorrow to do the gift exchange (clothing and dorky toys for the boys-who knows what for me and hubby) This is always a really wierd time for me and the Defunt dad, i remember being seventeen, eighteen, nineteen on op through 21 jumping everytime the phone rang waiting for it to be him, half wanting to be normal, half wanting to yell at him for dissapearing and he never called. Then one day I had Bigguy and everything was supposed to be normal again as far as he was concerned, and I still want to just stand up and yell at him! "Where were you, what did I do, why couldn't you call, why couldn't you stop by mom's when you drove past her house every damn day you went to work!?!?!?!?!?" but for some reason I can't. I had an idealized version of him in my head for so long I don't want to let go of it. But I am now realizing he is human, and as such can fail someone. He let me down and I know that now-I just don't know why. Oh and evil step-mom will be there too-being overly nice so I don't take away the grandbabies I guess.
Man, that was a downer.
Christmas rocked though! We all got neat stuff and everyone seemed to like the stuff we foisted off on them. Ask Space waitreess about her blanket! I am glad she liked it.
Jazzcat gave us a check to put in our savings for a house so that we ma bbe living on our own again in something we own.
Mom was frazzled but good and managed for the first time to by gifts for Hubby that he likes and well fit him all at the same time. Yeah Mom!
Well. thats enough for now I suppose. I would like to leave you all with a thought till next time. If humans evolced from primates, why the hell did we get rid of tails and opposable toes??Think of the multi-tasking!

Friday, December 03, 2004

You'll shoot your eye out!!

Took the boys to see Santa today with my mom. While standing in line that fabulous scene from "A Christmas Story" kept running thru my head. I want a red rider bb gun.
Heh. frageelay